Shit has been so crazy since I was on here last.
I dated a crazy chick for 5 months. I did have a lot of fun, but wasn’t worth what it cost me.
I’m still working at Mcdonalds & staying at my dad’s house.
I’ve gotten crazy blackout wasted too many times to count & stay high as fuck.
I stay pissed at life & hate most people and things.
I did almost have a 3 way like 4 times but some bullshit always fucks it up.
I met this really cool tatted up chick, that was some fun times too lol.
THEN there’s one i started crushing on. I never actually had a crush before this, so I didn’t recognize what it was. Long story short tried to move to fast, crazy drunk texts, & random stupidness landed me in the friend zone. BUT this chick is worth the friend zone. she’s cool as fuck to just chill with. & her best friend is ballin as fuck too(dated her friend in middle school, such a small world)
Those 2 are for real the coolest chicks of the ones I usually chill with.
SO yea on to why i’m back on tumblr.
My depression & shit has started coming back again hard. Eight months with no serious spells of depression. Now these are worse than before. I’m always in panic attack mode & can never calm back down. I get more & more stressed out until I feel like I’m going to explode. Then I either start yelling at objects or people, go get high, or start drinking. The drinking has already caused problems, so I haven’t drank in 2 days. At least it’s a start.
So i’m going to be using this as a journal for a while. I’ll just see what becomes of it.
